WHY#

That feeling you get when at one point you think your whole life is in order,that you think you have it all,that you think you are one of the happiest people around, and suddenly that feeling is yanked out of you so forcefully that you lose your breath for a second, in that second,your whole world comes crumbling down,you scrable and run around like a headless chicken for a while,looking for signs that is not there, looking for that precise moment when the crack appeared on the wall,searching for things that happened and you just overlooked it,cos you want to continue to bask in that euphoric feeling.
Then you tell yourself you will move on,promising yourself that you are not a weak person,that you are stronger than you think,even your alter ego at this point is as silent as a graveyard.
You task
You prove
You move
You run
You crawl
You try everything you can but it all comes down to that feeling,that stuck feeling that you are going nowhere.
Then you ask yourself how you got into this the first place,was it even supposed to be like this, then the anger sets in,you get angry at everything,especially all things that remind you of ...........
Then you get tired of getting angry and instead look for ways to move on,you crave for ways to get past this point,to get on with life,to get to that place you were before you two hooked up
I am still at this place.......................